I’m having an interesting day. Feeling kinda emotional and overwhelmed with stuff…homemaker stuff. So I just signed up to the FlyLady.com mails in hopes that their baby steps system will help me find some sort of routine that I can follow and enjoy. There is clutter everywhere in our house. Partially because since we moved in we stashed things here and there because we didn’t know where else they should go. We moved from a huge rental house with far too much space to this farm where we still have lots of space, but it’s all broken down quite differently. And there was already tons of junk here before we moved in. Yes, we have thrown away 120 cubic meters of junk, but there is still lots of it here. And some stuff that we discovered here which we wanted to work into our own house – antiques, cool trinkets, etc. But in two years time, I haven’t accomplished that at all.
In one of the welcome letters from the FlyLady, she talks about your first mission being to keep your sink clean and shiny for 1 month. She goes on to describe how she was feeling:
When I set out to get my act together in 1999, I didn’t know where to start either. This is why I just picked my sink. I was tired of beating myself up over the way I kept our home looking. At this point I knew what I had been doing would not work for very long. It was because I would go gung ho for a week or two then I would crash and burn. There is no rhythm to my method. I was forcing myself to adhere to a new set of rules and I felt so confined by the sheer number of them. I knew the system I had always used was not going to work again. This is when I started to rethink how I treated myself and guilt trips I would force on me. These were not working and I was so beaten down.
I’m so there right now. Maybe it’s some of the nesting instinct kicking in…maybe it’s just me finally thinking that we can’t have the clutter of two adults, a kid and a dog here anymore. This place is just too small for all that. Or perhaps it’s because I have a birthday coming up next Wednesday and figure I better make this year count. I’ll be 29…and I want our lives to be happier by the time I turn 30. So in this next year, I’m making it a mission to be a better homemaker, homesteader, wife, mom (not hard to be better since I haven’t really started yet lol) and business owner. Yep, still a long list. But if I can find ways to break everything down into steps that accomplish a little bit at a time, I know things can be really incredible. We have big dreams and goals to accomplish – but whining about what I feel I can’t accomplish isn’t going to help at all.
